This is what the sign should read. It is the ultimate cosmic joke. The one that has us running all over the place frantically trying to affirm “something”.

Seek and you will not find is the truth.
There is nothing to find. There never has been.
Everything we do is an attempt to “define”. Yet really there is no definition apart from the one we give it. You see – we have the paradigm the wrong way round. It goes like this:-

1. There is nothing
2. So we create something
3. But then we try to find a meaning in its existence?
Crazy!

You cannot define a thing, because it is the observer’s definition of it that creates it, this gives it its ultimate meaning. This is one of the laws of Quantum Mechanics:- The very art of observing gives it it’s existence.

Beneath the surface of life is the ultimate lie – the lie that this “reality” is true. For it is not, it is an illusion.

Nothing means anything
In our attempts to prove we exist – we take something and give it a reason. We fight, we argue, we justify its cause but beneath it all if we are willing (to let go that is) – we will come to the truth about it and that state known as “not knowing”. We do not know because there is nothing to know. There just ”is”. 

Everything is one big song and dance. This life is one big illusion. It is and has been set up to give us a chance to play but we forgot we were playing.

If you look for a reason, you’ll never find “it”, for there will always be another reason and another…and another. Such is life. The paradigm is set up out of confusion.

Definition lay in our perception – not the “thing” itself
If you change your view or outlook on “something”, have you noticed that the “thing” itself changes? Does this not hold a clue? That is that:-

Nothing is real
If you are looking for definite answers you will not find them – for the “system” is ultimately flawed.
To understand the “system” you must step out of it. (Trying to explain this while within the paradigm of the “system” does not help either!!)

Have you ever looked at a problem one day only to discover the next day you can view it from a different perspective and it holds a different meaning or solution?
Have you been frustrated because you cannot get an “answer”?
Do you seek a definite solid answer to your “problem”?

You’ll never find an answer
Because whenever  you look at “something” from a new perspective – you’ll find a new definition.
Perception alters our world. (although not the ultimate reality beneath)
Perception defines.

But how can you guarantee truth you may ask? Surely there is a place of definite answers? For if there is not – then this world is one big confusion, apt to be pulled apart by every whim or curse that finds it.

Answer: – This is the Truth
There is no definite solution or answer in this “world”. For this “world” is a game. Its creation serves its purpose – so it is the ultimate dichotomy – you will never find an answer.

And this is what is so ridiculous, so amusing and so comical about it all; it is the ultimate “cosmic joke”.
It is the reason you can drive yourself insane looking for the “answer”.

If you can accept the rules of this “world” (or “game”) – that ultimately – there is “no answer” – so much more peaceful will your life be.

There will you come to know “the truth” and there will you know the ultimate truth of this life – that is – it is the “game”!

Then can you decide its worth. Then can you decide what you want to pursue. Then can you decide what you want to find an answer to by creating “the problem”.

But this time – while you are running around trying to find a solution – you will come from a place of knowing, a place of peace – for your seeking does not rest on a need to feel at ease. For you will know that:-

YOU created the problem in order to find the answer

Does this sound confusing? Probably. I may re-write this again to try and make it more clearer – although it is not easy trying to describe a concept which is not within this paradigm of existence (eg/ the illusion)

I am writing about this to convey what I was seeking for so long – that is – “the truth”.
Yet no one told me that “the truth” is whatever I decided I wanted it to be.

Although had someone tried to tell me and perhaps they did and I cannot remember, would I have believed them? For it sounds so incredibly simple. Such is life.

The simple is often the most elegant in form – yet ugly by its definition

So how does this help anything?
I could say “the answer is whatever you want it to be” – but that would be too clever, too subtle an answer!

It doesn’t serve to give you anything aside from the peace in the knowing that you’ll never find “an answer” – and this is a huge relief for the one who “seeks”.

So what of “this world”?
The truth is – there is another one beneath it. – One that is so much more elegant and beautiful and that doesn’t change according to its observer.

I cannot really speak of it – for it is beyond definition in this “world”. To try and explain it within the paradigm of the flawed system is apt to failure, for the very system that is failed cannot explain its own shortcomings.

Anyone who knows and has experienced it – will know that trying to explain it is difficult. And this is not some elusive club – where there are an elite gang who are ‘above’ the rest. No, simply put – this is something we all have access to – and more importantly – at any time, but it is simply our personal choice to find / access it. Some are more prone to searching for others. Period.

I can only compare it to sleep and waking states.
In sleep we believe our dream world to be true – yet only on waking do we understand the truth.

So is it with this world. It is only on waking that we realise the truth – that is – this life is a lie, an illusion, built to sustain its own premise for survival. Built to provide itself with a meaning to support its own existence.

When we wake up – then do we glimpse the eternal beauty of truth and it is then that this “world” we live in will pale in comparison, for everything we sought after and believed to be true – we will laugh at.

The same as the person who wakes up after dreaming a nightmare – as he laughs at the realisation of his nightmare upon waking – so shall we laugh when we wake from this illusion we call life.

So how do we wake up?

By not accepting anything we see.
By refusing to accept this “reality” as truth, by refusing to accept the justification for its existence.

By going within and asking.
Never accept until you know the truth.
How will we know the truth?
You will not be able to miss it. It is so obvious, so beautiful, so magnificent that once you stumble upon it everything will click into place. All the reading, all the searching, all the questions will become meaningless.

The “truth” is so obvious that once you’ve found it there is no way you could miss it. And this is what is meant by “the truth will set you free”. The truth will free you of this world of your own imagining. The truth will free you from the illusion. Seek and you will find, though you won’t find it in this “world”.

I will end by saying a few words of my own personal search for truth within the insane Western Society I live within.

There is an *enlightened man who sits on a rock all day and night. Along comes a man of the “world” who exclaims, “How silly are you! – there you sit all day and night on that rock while I am out here in the world enjoying myself. You silly fool – do you not see that while you waste away doing nothing – I am here enjoying the fruits of this world”.

The one on the rock says nothing,  – he simply nods his head in agreement. For he knows that he knows nothing and it is this that saves him from the “world”.

Men are uncomfortable around the enlightened one. They feel an unease of the surety that the enlightened radiates, for they do not understand the enlightened one and it is this that frightens them.

The enlightened one seems content with nothing – yet how could this be asks the other, what has this man got that I haven’t?

What has this man got that gives him such a sense of contentment, surely this man is deluded – or he is hiding something. For the unenlightened one cannot puzzle over such a simple fact. He is used to finding by seeking, by looking for the answers and when presented with one who no longer searches – he is quizzed – for this does not sit within his “world” paradigm.

It does not make “sense” – so the unenlightened one tries to find a reason – a flaw with the enlightened one, maybe he is depressed, maybe he has lost the will to live, maybe he has suffered disappointment in life and has resigned, maybe maybe maybe..

If only the unenlightened one would seek the answers they ask within instead of trying to find them in the world, then would they know the truth of the silenced one.
But man has much to learn who lives in the world. His beliefs are based on the need to prove his existence – to demonstrate his worth. Shall he know his worth is nothing? Could he deal with his?

Man is frightened by what he does not know. Most of all himself. And when man is frightened he will unconsciously attack those that threaten his “survival”. The enlightened one knows this and knows why he is being attacked unconsciously – so strives not to retaliate - only to accept what is and demonstrate compassion at every instance to whatever or whoever attacks him. Fear attacks, compassion forgives.

Nb/ I do not use the references “enlightened” or “unenlightened” as a form of snobbishness or spiritual arrogance. It is simply a terminology that one has to use in trying to convey spiritual understanding within the framework of language and words. There is no difference between the two.

I always love to change things.
I find myself learning computer programs to enable me to change things.
With an unlimited time pass I would learn to write the computer programs so I can change more things.

Changing things is a daily and ongoing part of creative existence. We see something, sample it, decide what we like, what we don’t, extract the best, remove the worst, alter those things we can alter and ta-dah – we have a “changed thing”; perfect or near perfect suiting our own ‘’world’’.

Ultimately each one of us is creating our own world on a daily basis and it is this that is being replicated on the internet.

I want to change wordpress. I want to make it more orderly.I want a Conversational blog (like this) alongside a Catagorised blog, like my “What About My Dreams”. I want it tidier. The Categorised blog would behave as an ongoing chapter / book system. A paid subscription service would be available where the author can provide a brief synopsis of his/her book with a user paying a subscription for chapters. In essence, a pay-per-chapter system, giving instance feedback and financial return for writers; with users the availability of opt-in and out services. The service could include a profit sharing scheme for both the user and author, perhaps taking into account the lenght of time the user had been subscribing and perhaps optiongs whereby the user takes an active part in the directional content of the book by voting on possible next chapter scenerios provided by the writer… (I could go on)

Actually this service already happens, it just happens to be in different formats.

I am changing and my priorities are changing and the thing to remember is that change occurs at every moment on every level. There is big change, like when systems / structures / people undergo radical alterations, medium change where departments shift / people move house, or small change, where the director gives the team a new brief / an individual changes their hairstyle. Every level of change brings a string of knock on effects, those effects equate to the degree of change. Alongside those effects are the ongoing concurrents that run beneath the surface, as are the daily small daily changes that contribute definitely to the big changes, all adding up to an intricate complex environment of change.

I am experiencing big change at the moment. I study astrology and I’m midway through Saturn transiting my 12th house. Right now everything is changing for me. I’m shifting, sorting, sampling and trying. Finding the best routes, systems and adjusting them to my own internal change. However, – I would hate to tell you the number of times I have redesigned my website to reflect these changes. I have now given up.

Sometimes when we are undergoing radical shifts, it is best to avoid implementing anything new, instead simply allow the organic change to run its course and once it settles on higher ground, we can again pitch our tents and get stuck up (or redesign a website). Chaos can sit within a system if you allow it to.

By changing internal structures we reflect and project that change into the world; seeking resonate forms and structures we alter those forms, ultimately moulding into new creations of our own and changing the world (around us).