Idle Chat 2 – Personal Growth

As I have evolved and grown as a person my own personal interests have become lesser and lesser in value. It is like the balance has tipped from self interest to the welfare of others.
This hasn’t been an altruistic serving attitude whereby I’ve felt it was the ‘right thing to do’ but rather a realisation that it is the most beautiful thing to do with one’s life.

When reaching for the epitome of existence; that is – the great depths of ultimate human experience, helping others and spreading love is by far the greatest motivation I can now conceive of.

I reached on a personal level a point of no return, a place where I “knew” I had and do have everything; to have everything is to simply know that one has everything – simple but profound.

This shocking truth experienced and realised can colour and change a persons values and outlook to such an extent – all else in comparison is unequivocal in its value of importance.

When iron gates open and one realises and understands we have everything – the world crumbles and the value tags placed on previous ideals and ambitions become questionable, leaving the real existential dilemma of, “what is left to experience”?, now being asked.

For me this is where life really begins, for life now operates on a higher plane of existence, for no longer it is I that operates but rather the force of truth and higher consciousness operating within and through me. For me a whole new paradigm of existence and relating to life, myself  and others has opened, although currently I am swerving between the old model and new models of existence.

My job is to ensure that I remain at best whenever possible in that place where truth can have its fuller expression in life while I remain as clear, open and honest in my everyday dealings.

The highest motivation for me is to experience truth but through other people.
Personal freedom experienced through others is the only and ultimate level of experience left on this plane of existence.

This may sound all too patronising but it is not meant to be, more a realisation on my part that nothing else compares except this new found level of existence.

For me there simply is no other route available. After realising and acknowledging this new level of existence and relationship with life – all else is far reaching in its lack of comparative experience.

Perhaps this may all sound a bit “far-out”, idealistic and wishy-washy – but personally by far it is the most potent aggressive form of power I’ve unearthed available for mans consumption. The implications of such power I have not found to match in any comparative study in respect of the depth, magnitute and magnificence of that power known as “love”.

I have experienced many truths in my search but by far this is the highest frequency I have found operating within mans domain and I am dumbfounded by its far reaching beauty and overwhelming power.

The weak accounts for the strong.
It is with the most gentle we exert the greatest force.