Right now I am going through some of the most major and profound changes I’ve ever experienced in my life. In order to do what I am doing I’m having to be the strongest version of who I am and that involves the fighting and breaking down of myself to ultimately overcome and defeat myself.

Any good figher knows that prior to a fight they must analyse the opponent and note down their weaknesses, so for us to win our fight we must have strength but importantly know, allow and accept our weaknesses.

We mustn’t deny our weaknesses – for that gives them power, instead we must acknowledge but not act on them. Weaknesses need to be blessed, they’re there to help you; you may not always realise how or why, – just know they’re there for a reason and leave it at that. Don’t deny them else they’ll hit out when your backs turned.

When we change we need to be strong. We need to be strong through vision, attitude, focus and most important:- “vigilance”.

When we change, the mind will try and stop us. It will try every trick to throw a spanner in the works. (NB/ This is ultimately good – it demonstrates progression).

It will throw all your baggage to you at once (and more) and give you every reason not to do what you’re doing. In essence part of the minds job is to protect you – but sometimes you don’t need protection – especially when changing yourself. This is where you need to be vigilant and ready for the fight. Preparation is everything.

When we don’t act on our unconscious beliefs, instead try something different, the mind gets agitated.
We find ourselves saying and doing things we hadn’t anticipated and a two way struggle begins, it’s the minds way of trying to get back it’s identity. It’s quite strange because I had a dream the other night about Superman 3 – I looked it up and now I understand – it’s the dual personality fight!

Persevere.

No matter how many stupid things you say or self debilitating or self-defeating actions you find yourself doing, simply once aware of what’s happened – move on, forget about it but just keep going whatever you do.

This is a process and will pass.

It’s the old actions testing and fighting you. Sure you’ll find yourself saying goofy things to the person you like or eating the cake when you’re on a diet or missing the appointment for the all important meeting but this is Superman 3 – the alter ego – it’s all there to try and trick and hinder your progress and it’s great – as mentioned, “it means you’re progressing”.

Realise you’re currently ignoring your mind and no-one likes to be ignored.
The mind is simply reviving your attention, or attempting. But how does it do it?

It gets you to do and say silly things when you’re least expecting or consciously aware and then sits back with its result while you’re then left standing in the room with everyone’s mouths open. It’s a good tactic because it gets great results: – “it gets a reaction”.

However, this is a fight so you’re going to need to change your tactics.
When you say something detrimental or do something silly, this time “don’t react” – no matter how humiliating what you’ve just said or done, you’re just going to have to swallow hard and accept the outcome. Do try to tidy up as best possible, apologies normally work, bribes need delicacy and disappearing for a while can make matters easier (and bearable) – but don’t make it too long, you might not have anything to go back to.

As for the situation– if it’s meant to work out it will find a way, if it’s not then so be it; you’re just have to have to have faith in the process and not fret; remember this is a fight – agility is key.

Understand when the mind gets a reaction it keeps you in its power so hence why it will try to mess things up for you through unconscious intent (and hopefully action). It’s always worked in the past so why not again because while you’re fretting about what you’ve just done, the mind will always be gleefully happy that its got it’s companion intact.

The reaction to the situation itself could be anything: – fret, worry, embarrassment, humiliation, shame, guilt, – but ultimately it’s the one that presses your buttons. This is why knowing your weaknesses is your strength. Take note of your trigger points. These will be the things that matter most to you.
The mind will use these because they get the best results, in other words, the best reaction.

An example – if losing weight is important to you – it may just be harder to exert will power right now because the mind will be making a special unconscious effort to slip you up so it can get its usual reaction (so be mindful of your danger zones / areas). If it does achieve its goal and you slip up, this time – refuse to feel bad because right now you can’t afford to feel bad – it could cost you a blow to the head and undo all the work you’ve been doing.

Another example – perhaps you’ve wanted to break up with your partner for a while and you’ve just summoned the courage to do so – but now you’re riddled with guilt. Refuse to accept your reaction or rather acknowledge it but “do not act on it”, for guilt maybe your weakness.

Know your weaknesses because the opponent (you) will be using them and no better person who knows you than yourself!

Be aware – the mind is going to become more agitated as it becomes increasingly ignored (the goal on your part is to work and break it down until it crashes and you become champ) – so be prepared for some potentially embarrassing situations. Try to avoid anything that could be fatal to damage in career and relationships, so rule out any forthcoming wedding or job appointments in the run up to a fight.

Whatever you do – persevere and remember Superman III

The way to win a fight is not to accept defeat (of mind or body), always keep focused on the goal, be prepared and do your homework and get in shape both mentally and physically – you’ll need the stamina and agility because it might, just might get nasty (and slightly embarrassing).

Sometimes you have to lose yourself to know who you are. When you reach the lowest state of being you can reach up into the highest, for great depth extends both ways. In the emptiness do we see the light. When there is no reason to live anymore do we find more reasons than ever possible.

When you look at yourself and realise it is all so empty – then can you enjoy life because you know it is empty, you have experienced that emptiness and out of that emptiness becomes reality, a reality of becoming, of defining, of valuing everything and everyone you have and put in your life because this time you are not simply acting out, this time you are the writer.

When you know through experience that life is one grand play and that it all boils down to the script writer, then you take full control but sometimes you have to be lost without a script to know this.

In the darkest hour comes the greatest joy.

I once went and saw a fortune teller only to come away feeling a lack of self-worth and disenchantment about my life. Why?
I didn’t get the answer I was seeking.

Revelling in this sorry state for a while I realised that during this brief lapse of time my mood had changed from one of optimism to now – deflation.
This caused concern.

A conversation with Norma Leigh of the 5th generation of medium psychics and it would seem my supposed average life was up for the trash pile? (Funny how Norma could fix it with a small fee for the special imported candles from Africa that would help mend the apparent malady)

However ridiculous this situation was – it taught me something I would have paid for anyway. (I guess I did get the answer I was seeking)

It taught me that if I can pay someone to tell me supposed hypothetical nonsense and feel bad – then I could save my money, tell myself some hypothetical nonsense but adjust it so that it makes me feel good. The hypothetical nonsense bit would be easy (and entertaining); the difficult part would be whether or not I chose to believe it.

Why do I listen to fools more than myself? What was it that made me pay a stranger who obviously hasn’t the faintest notion about me or my life yet I was still there paying for the privilege? More worryingly what had happened to my common-sense (and self-esteem)?

We choose to believe others when emotional content gets in the way. We take the bypass through the unknown because we wish to avoid the known, normally hoping to hear a better version than the one we’re telling ourselves.

There are plenty of people who will take your cash and tell you what you want to hear but why not save your own cash and tell yourself.

We want to believe something is right but we’re not willing to accept it, instead we validate the story by seeking out fools who tell us for a fee.

Trust yourself. I am learning. I do not necessarily like the truth but now I’m starting to realise and understand that I have the power to change it.

Truth is dependent on what we believe. If I believe something to be true, so be it.
If I purchase a crystal ball, read my own fortune and feel good then great, however, if the reverse happens and I feel bad – where does that leave me?

Truth is subjective, there is no crystal ball. There is only what we choose to believe and allow into our experience; if we choose to pay someone to provide that information – best we get their credentials first before we offer our souls as payment.

Idle Chat 2 – Personal Growth

As I have evolved and grown as a person my own personal interests have become lesser and lesser in value. It is like the balance has tipped from self interest to the welfare of others.
This hasn’t been an altruistic serving attitude whereby I’ve felt it was the ‘right thing to do’ but rather a realisation that it is the most beautiful thing to do with one’s life.

When reaching for the epitome of existence; that is – the great depths of ultimate human experience, helping others and spreading love is by far the greatest motivation I can now conceive of.

I reached on a personal level a point of no return, a place where I “knew” I had and do have everything; to have everything is to simply know that one has everything – simple but profound.

This shocking truth experienced and realised can colour and change a persons values and outlook to such an extent – all else in comparison is unequivocal in its value of importance.

When iron gates open and one realises and understands we have everything – the world crumbles and the value tags placed on previous ideals and ambitions become questionable, leaving the real existential dilemma of, “what is left to experience”?, now being asked.

For me this is where life really begins, for life now operates on a higher plane of existence, for no longer it is I that operates but rather the force of truth and higher consciousness operating within and through me. For me a whole new paradigm of existence and relating to life, myself  and others has opened, although currently I am swerving between the old model and new models of existence.

My job is to ensure that I remain at best whenever possible in that place where truth can have its fuller expression in life while I remain as clear, open and honest in my everyday dealings.

The highest motivation for me is to experience truth but through other people.
Personal freedom experienced through others is the only and ultimate level of experience left on this plane of existence.

This may sound all too patronising but it is not meant to be, more a realisation on my part that nothing else compares except this new found level of existence.

For me there simply is no other route available. After realising and acknowledging this new level of existence and relationship with life – all else is far reaching in its lack of comparative experience.

Perhaps this may all sound a bit “far-out”, idealistic and wishy-washy – but personally by far it is the most potent aggressive form of power I’ve unearthed available for mans consumption. The implications of such power I have not found to match in any comparative study in respect of the depth, magnitute and magnificence of that power known as “love”.

I have experienced many truths in my search but by far this is the highest frequency I have found operating within mans domain and I am dumbfounded by its far reaching beauty and overwhelming power.

The weak accounts for the strong.
It is with the most gentle we exert the greatest force.