Idle Chat 1 – Deconstruction
I tend to compartmentalise life. This goes here, that goes there and items with no label we’ll create a miscellaneous bin. Much to my dislike the miscellaneous bin exists but things get messy without it.
My blog has a miscellaneous bin; this is it, I’ve aptly named it ‘Idle Chat’, whether the label does it justice I really don’t care.
I might just delete, or appropriately – ‘empty’ the bin when I feel it’s getting messy, we’re see.
I realise that I like to write with purpose. If I have something potentially informative to share with others – I will take it up, otherwise I classify writing as a form of personal self expression; this is a personal interpretation not objective statement.
There is writing for an audience and writing for one-self and writing that sits in between.
Creating a section of my blog for self expression I decided could be nurturing. Moving out of structure, allowing more space and freedom for self expression without the outwardly concern on finish seemed perhaps a good idea to try, so here I am.
So I have been going through a gradual and enlightening process of change that has had me dismantling myself brick by brick.
Like a building undergoing restoration work the demolition process has begun whilst at the same time new foundations form.
Everything is in turmoil, just when I believe I have leverage something gets thrown across and cuts through the equilibrium. I’ve accepted this as reality and try not to fight it.
Change does not happen on this level as frequently as small change so I give this process my permission to do what it must in order to create the ultimate reformation.
Dismissive perhaps? – no, more accepting. I’ve accepted the reality of what is happening and yes, annoying in so far that decisions I make are daily strewn apart due to the latest deconstruction headlines but enlightening in that daily new vantage points pop up everywhere giving me ultimate access to areas I never previously knew about.
Like a castle each day I find exciting new areas from which I view opponents and this game is getting really fun, I can now access areas previously concealed allowing me greater power over my aliments and providing me with a far greater structure upon which to build a new life.
